I'm back bitchessss!

That's right j dub is back at it again!I figured that this year was going to be a pretty interesting and productive year so I thought I should keep track of it :] Well, so far the year is off to a good start. Snowboarding season is pretty good too this year so thats a plus! Anyways, this year I will be turning 21.. actually.. in about 3 months I will be 21. Pretty scary but I've been doing a lot of internalizing and making some changes in my life to accomplish a few goals that I have set for myself. I can say that for mostof the people my age will be thinking about how they finally won't be getting carded anymore and all the drinking and vegas trips that they will be making that year. But for me I decided to dream a little bigger then bar and vegas trips at 21. Why can't I have a vision or big unrealistic dreams for myself to accomplish? If I didn't what would I strive for? If it's too good to be true, do I always have to settle for less? I wouldn't really call these resolutions but just goals I would like to accomplish in a few years or maybe just in my own lifetime. For so long I've been just planning on what I was going to do in the next week or two but never thought about what I would like to accomplish in the next 2 years or maybe even in 10 years? I look around and see so many of my friends just stuck and confused, just letting time pass by and not caring about what will happen to them currently as long as they didn't feel affect. Just smoking or drinking their worries away so they wouldn't have to be responsible enough to sit down and think it through. THAT's exactly what I want to stop doing this year. Replacing most my non productive habits/time and turning them into some more productive habits/time. I realized I would be scarificing a lot but it is about time to step it up now. For so long I've been trying to take the easy way out and just have fun all the time and it has taken me no where. I know the consequences and challenges I will have to face to accomplish this for myself. I finally want to earn the right respect that's credible and not just street credibility. But for someone to tell me that I worked hard for mine and they really respect what I do. There are going to be some friends I'm going to have to drop and there's just going to be some things that I love to do that I have to drop as well. But eventually in a few years I know I won't regret picking myself up soon as I could. I don't want to look back later in my life and think I wish I could of or I wish should of. Cause I'm fighter and I can't settle for less and I just know my capability that I seriously want to put to test. This year it's going to be tough with many struggles and crucial choices that I will have to make, but I trust myself enough to make the right decisions each day. For those of you who truly consider themselves my friends I hope that you will support me in this long journey.